Saturday, February 11, 2012

Juggling- and admitting defeat

Do you ever feel like you've got too much going on?
Like you can't breathe?
Like, while your life may be good, it's too much?
Yeah?
Me, too!!

I'm a busy chick!
3 teenagers, 3 dogs, one husband, home to run, errands to run, people & pets to care for, a business to run, art to make, ideas to conceive, networking to do, on, and on, and , well, you get the point.

We're all so busy.

But sometimes you reach the point where it's TOO MUCH, and you can't focus.
That's where I am now.

I haven't painted in a year.
I haven't picked up the charcoal in at least 4 months.
It makes me sad.

My house is a DISASTER! 
It drives me batty.

I handle a billion and one things every day, but do none of them WELL.
And Im over tired, cranky, and SNIPPY.
I don't have time to play with my kids.
Or my wieners.

So this past week, I've been looking at things, trying to figure out how to fix this, 
because I am going bonkers over here.
 My dogs are ill-behaved, my teenagers are insane, and my ADD self is having a lot of trouble 
focusing on anything for more than 10 seconds at a time.
So, I start listing the things I've got going on, and the things I WANT to have going on.
Thoughts about my family.
Reminding myself that I NEED to work on my art.
That I want to spend time at the Humane Society.
Asking, what can I change, what can I cut out, what can I shuffle around?

I decided, I'm quitting school.
See, I started out going for a business degree, because I thought I needed it to be able to 
run a business and not bankrupt myself and my family.
Then I switched to art school because, well, I WANTED to.
I left art school due to some shady things going on there.
I don't like shady things!
Went back to business school.
But, really, do I NEED a business degree?
Probably not.
Being part of CHA, I get a lot of free business help and advice.
Etsy also sends tons of business advice.
I've NO desire to get a corporate job.
So, no, I don't need a business degree.

I'm finishing the class I'm in, and then I'm done.
Yeah, it's going to suck to start paying those student loans back in a few months.
But that's OK, we'll survive.

While on one hand, I feel as if I'm admitting defeat, on the other hand,
 it's a big relief to know that in 3 weeks, I will have about 25 hours of stuff I
 HAVE
 to do removed from my schedule. 
Ah, what a relief!

I am so excited to have more time to work on my art.
I have big plans for the blog, and will finally have time to implement them.
I have big plans for my posts at Things Crafty.
Now I'll have time to do them.

YAY!!




3 comments:

  1. It is certainly not defeat to admit that some things have to give. And you have certainly tackled it from the right angle - to have a good look at what you really need.
    You GO girl!!!

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  2. Good luck on your journey!! Very interested to know what you're up to"))

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  3. Good for you!! You go, girl. It's not defeat to do what you love instead of what you have to. You're just separating the chaff from the wheat.

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